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j43r0 — Sat, 05 Jun 2010 03:35:30 +0000

i know im incompetent as it is, i know i can never do anything right, i know im clumsy, i know i cant ______.. i know i cant _____.. i know i cant ______ (you can fill in the blanks). Been told this since day one… so please stop reminding me because i KNOW, and feel even worse… sometimes even pretty mad.

As i was typing the paragraph above, I was listening to the song unashamed.. and this line stuck out to me
“I have not much to offer You not near what You deserve, but still i come because Your cross has placed in me my worth”

I know i cant do so many things, but my worth is not found in what i do right or wrong, or what i say, but in Jesus, through Jesus, and for Jesus.
I wish i could always think like this…. i pray that i can… but well go from here… a new goal ive set for myself.

headdesk

j43r0 — Wed, 26 May 2010 00:21:22 +0000

wow…. … what has happened?
…when have guys become sooo sensitive?… getting angry b/c people talk behind their backs….. wow… thats girl drama haha…. i feel like a mom having to settle the kids together and make them apologize to eachother

Time to get back to work

j43r0 — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 02:52:24 +0000

lately ive been doin nohtin but dancing and nothig ahaha… so when i saw my grades… i knew what to expect … wel its time to get back on the grind and STUDY… peace~

spring

j43r0 — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 03:16:10 +0000

well im back…blehhh the weather feels like it totally skipped over spring and went directly into summer. IT is SOOOO HOT right now… im dying T_T haha…but yea neway… today was a fun day got alot of dancing in, but it was also kind of stressful :/…. i was havin some personal prblms… which are never good but yea… overall today was filed with pollen and heat. Oh by the way i got to make a smoke bomb with my friends haha… it was prett sick… the thing straight blew up before it was even ready so it was crazy haha…well im off to go do somtin so i will talk to you later… peace~

T-T

j43r0 — Sun, 28 Mar 2010 03:31:57 +0000

i cant feel the music nemore T_T

work work work

j43r0 — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 01:49:38 +0000

From here on out, i am gonna be super motivated toward imporving my technique

Spring wont you come

j43r0 — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 03:54:04 +0000

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5y7Grf6n5Xo

Wipe off my tears away from my puffy eyes with my sleeve
Everything is torn apart, I forget my days boundary
I can’t open up a new morning, I waste my time behind my tears waiting for you to come back
I don’t know why I’m crying so much with the second hand of my clock in my room and the confusion of my sadness
After awhile i try to calm her flowery tears
I can vaguely remember the long waits that and now they’re waiting for me
I’m searching for your traces, please send me a sign
Do you think the birds will know the sounds of your scared voice
Be my echo that never fades, my spring light that shines in me
Now that I’ve sent this season, Oh spring please come to me

Spring, Oh far away spring
If I close both my eyes
The place I gave my love
I can hear the faint sound of her voice

I shake and drop my head my tears are rolling around on the ground
My heart has frozen like the moonlight, it won’t melt
I try to hide my feelings behind the clouds
I see the birds in the sky but they can’t open up their wings
I’ve cherished the secrets and time has flown by
I’m taking a trip and won’t be coming back
I close my eyes and open them and I think I can feel you
My feelings are expressed through my tears, but the wind is blowing them away
My feelings are as scary as not being able to open my eyes
But I wipe away my tears and count to three to myself
One, two, three and now
I wish for everything to return to it’s place now

Spring, Oh far away spring
If I close both my eyes
The place I gave my love
I can hear the faint sound of her voice

Please come back to me
Oh warm spring that’s left me come back to me
I’m waiting for your heart that left me
My heart is like the stars far beyond in the dark night sky
Are the flowers infront of your house still beautiful
I grab the time that’s tossed over the streetlight
I put it in my pocket and wait for the day to be over

My feelings are as scary as not being able to open my eyes
But I wipe away my tears and count to three to myself
One, two, three and now
I wish for everything to return to it’s place now
I wipe away my tears and count to three to myself
One, two, three and now

-mc sniper

update (as of saturday)

j43r0 — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 00:56:20 +0000

Hey! …haha this feels like im talking to a wall but w/e, i guess im not used to it , cuz i havent seriously blogged in a while. Well mr. internet heres an update on my life haha. Well more specifically, today haha. As dawn broke, i awoke from my slumber with a certain bewildered look on my face…………hahaa just kidding XD. Seriously, this morning i got up at like 830, so i could go take a practice sat exam at this sat prep class called kaplan. I mean, honestly, i dont think that taking these tests are that bad. Im starting to learn ot not get bored during the test, and besides i think its a better use of my time instead of waking up and just doin nothin, but sulking all day. But yea, i feel like im getting better at staying awake during these types of tests, mentally, and physically. After that test was over, i got a ride from this girl at my sat class. I mean she goes to my school, but ive never really talked to her. Her mom is pretty funny i must say tho haha. then melissa joined the ride and we all headed over to starbucks. Honestly, we were there to study, but ….. i mean we started off welll, but then my friend John walked in and we just talked bout dancing for like half an our straight haha XD. After that we got a ride from my pap, and made our way downtown to our session. Haha, but while we were in the car, John looked like he was in deep thought, and i was like “yo”, (waving my hand in front of him), haha and he replies “oh, yo i just feel like we’re more legit cuz we’re driving to a session, its like we’re going on a roadtrip to some big jame XD” hahahaa.

Well there is more to this blog, but i dont feel like typing it right nwo, so ill type it later XD haha peace~

happy 6 and a half months! <3

j43r0 — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 20:15:55 +0000

happy 6 and a hlaf months to me and dancing Xd haha

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j43r0 — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 15:41:13 +0000

im acting like a girl havin all these stupid moodswings….. i dont think im pregnant.. so why am i like this?! haha well w/e dancing might make me feel better